I can't tell for sure why. Is it because of work? It's not even stressful work and I've been getting the right hours of sleep. (8 hours. for now. When school starts, I'm fucked.)

But I'm just incredibly tired.


I haven't been eating properly (don't eat breakfast, a snack for lunch, and no dinner), I get dizzy during work, I get mopey during work too. :\


And I haven't been feeling like drawing when I get home from work either.

But that might just be an excuse for me.

I've realized that art isn't something I want to make a career out of. (which sucks because I'm about to go into college for art so.) Art is something I"ll always love, but I get the feeling I'm going to get tired and only make it a tiny hobby. And then what?

I've grown out of anime, I don't read as much manga as I use to. I'm basically losing all interest in the hobbies I've once been so obsessed with.

I guess that's what I get for growing up. But. Now I don't know what to do.

I have no back up for the future. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. :[

I don't like this idea of growing up.


sigh.

Rambling. I'm sure no one's going to read this anyway. Sorry.